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My grandmother was admitted to the hospital last week and was placed in the ICU for observation for an entire week. Doctors said she had a lung infection and are suspecting a heart blockage. Her x-rays showed signs of cardiomegaly with some lung expansion. She was discharged yesterday though, but from the looks of it, only time will tell before she crosses over to be with my grandfather. Not being able to stand on her own, what more walk. Not being able to chew on solid food, depending on fluids and medications alone, the end may be impending. She even has respiratory difficulties now that she’s discharged. Right now, I’m just preparing for the worst. Pray with me, will you?

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In the next couple of days, I would still be visiting my grandmother on a daily basis, probably more often than once a day especially when my uncle returns to Singapore.
He’s a good man. A faithful son and a respectable figure in my life of whom I look up to way back since when I was young. My dad on the contrary is a good son, but as much as I would wish to respect him for being the man he is, it isn’t as simple as it seems. No point elaborating further because no one would understand anyways. I know what I know and no matter how hard I try to explain things, none of what I want to convey would get through to anyone. So yeah, I’ll just stick with that for the time-being. 

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On the other hand, the exam was alright, it went fine considering the fact that I’d only managed to
finish off 75% of what I was suppose to cover in such a short period of
time while under these unforeseen circumstances. Embryogenesis, fetal development, pelvic structure and fetal skull and all of the following lecture notes after that, I did not touch at all. Shall blog more about
that in the next post to come. By the way, I’m thinking of moving to Blogspot. I’ll post the link up here soon, so do pay a visit once in awhile.

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Sigh. All the commotion and worrying, it did take its’ toll on me both
physically and mentally especially since it was before the reproductive
system exam, even now that the exam is over, it still does bother me to
a certain extend if not more. And there’s also my mom to worry about, though I won’t say why. I’m worn out. Really really worn out. Inside out. Outside in. Difficult times like these really make you question who your true friends are. It’s certainly nice to have someone notice that something is wrong and ask about it. Thanks, Rose. Many thanks to you, Elaine for praying with me and showing that you care, and thank you Sue, for lending a ear. You both helped alot. And to you, the son of a bitch who still thinks that the world revolves around you, shut the fuck up already and burn in hell for all I care. You could seriously do the world a favour and make it a better place, simply by nullifying your existence, just perish.

PS: Preferably vanish in thin air. Save the trees. You don’t need a coffin.